My Blogging Hiatus…Moving Past Uninspired Days and Quieting that Negative Voice in Your Head

Do you ever feel like you’re in a rut? Or like you’re tired of the same old thing – tired of how your life (job, etc.) is going; tired of where you are? You feel like you’re just being unproductive or not creative or uninspired or whatever it is, but you don’t know what to do to change it? That was me since I started this blog.

When I finally got Chic and Petite up and running, I had just graduated college and felt like I had just started to write a brand-new chapter in my life, and I was going to be productive and creative and have tons of things to write about, and it will be great. Well, it didn’t happen. I wrote an introduction about myself blog post and one for Valentine’s Day, then I stopped everything. I didn’t know what to write about. I didn’t feel creative. I didn’t feel productive. I didn’t feel inspired. I didn’t feel motivated. I purchased new clothes with all intentions of posting hauls for Target, LOFT, Old Navy, etc. I planned outfits. I thought of tons of social media content ideas. I thought I was going to just start, and it would all come to me…but it didn’t.

Since starting this blog, I felt stuck – like I wasn’t going anywhere in life and like I wasn’t doing anything to help myself to become a better person or to move forward another step. It was like I was only going backwards. Does anyone else every feel this way? I tried a bunch of things to try and get myself motivated – purchased even more clothes, worked lots of hours at my current retail job. I also went to Asheville, North Carolina for a concert as a break from the chaos of Atlanta life and was going to write about it, and when I got home, I was like ‘eh no thanks, I don’t feel creative or productive to do that’. And I became that way with everything. I needed to start applying to companies for a full-time sales job, and I barely did that (I did get an offer from a company so that’s good.). I wanted to start really exercising and getting back into shape, but I had no motivation to change how I looked even if I didn’t like what I saw in the mirror (and y’all, I’m all about body positivity and loving how you are made, but I also know that I’m human and everyone has that voice in their head that says “you’re too big; you can’t fit into your clothes; why would you want to be seen in a bathing suit?”). And I just listened to that Negative Nelly of an inner voice, and I didn’t do anything. I had finally hit rock bottom and gave up.

I recently got back from Panama City Beach, Florida, where I was able to reflect on what’s been going on, and after talking to a friend about past life experiences and working hard and continuing to work past the hard days where you don’t want to do anything, I feel like I am finally starting to climb my way back up and move forward. I took this past week as a time of reflection of what I’ve been doing, what I want to be doing, and what I should be doing to get there. And I finally feel renewed, re-energized, motivated, and inspired. This voice inside my head that had become a loud yell is back to being this faint whisper. I know that the little voice will yell sometimes, but I know that my positive voice will be even louder, and I’ll move on even if I need to take a little break.